count down to the years to add

a year?
its something single but yet in piece massive and very involved.
it will be one year on the 28th that I've been in NYC,
and though i'm partly proud and aware of my growth, i still ask,
well, whats a year?!

i missed the lighting of the tree at Rockefeller plaza,
but was hit with the smucks coming from it at the restaurant last Wednesday nite.
i was half annoyed half jealous i do have to admit.
poop.

so the first snow fell last night which was bitter sweet
cause no one was home to dance around the apartment with me
besides the cats, but it only lasted for a quick hot second and then it melted.
very cold too with 15mph wind. eep.

last night as i came back home in the wee hours of the morning, i encountered my first subway conversation with a complete stranger. well my first that i secretly was cringing at anyways.

coincidentally we both had came from club Europa that night and he ended up living two stops before mine.



so saturday was some good times with the buddies, though i was short both a girl and boyfriend that night i had a tons of fun.
a business transaction was also in process.

cupcake random!



in the words of jeff, 'those cupcakes where epic'.

good news everyone still forgave me even though i spelled aaron's name 'aaon'.
geez 'i' retarded.
i really need to get glasses.
this is no loner a small issue i can mask through
excuses, and that holds true to what happened this weekend haa!

new pictures up @ myspace.com/cupcakerandom

my job decided to slap one more day of work for this week, which bummed me out some
but its not too bad, i suppose. eww.
on the lighter note me and vicky are gonna go hit the streets tonight
and dance into the late hours of the blacken sky.

i'm ansie to get a treee as soon as possible but that has to be delayed until we can figure out
the time and place to haul it home on the subway. then figure out cheap ways to decorate it.
it looks like the apt on 158 schaefer 3rd floor will have arts and crafts nite soon!

and in conclusion i leave you on a way more worthier note. the following is video about
a women's story and insight about having a stroke.
she explains what was going on during the whole thing
and the amazing "stroke of insight" she gained
from her incident that december day in 1996.

this is remarkable and without a doubt worth your time.

Jill Bolte Taylor: My stroke of insight

check it!

i've been working on a painting the last couple a days, which is a great outlet
and artistic comforter. i finally going to put all those throw away frames into use.
what restricts me from my projects is myself.
i get so caught up in the standards of well, standards
and then i'm so sure that its stupid and unqualified.
ha. i'm a real tough critic.

so its cold outside.
oh, right freezing and of course for some unknown reason our
heater's busted.
man, is everything in our house broken?
wtf is the landlord/super when you need them?
we still must enduring hard nipples in our own home
and walk with snow hats and janky socks.
err.


so it had to be 2ish months ago that me & sam had been star brushed
twice in two days.
our first hollywood encounter was vincent d'onofrio.
it was a beautiful evening, still warm outside, as we headed towards
moma for their free friday nights.
as we scadooed along the Manhattan ciaos,there on a random street lamp pole, a filming paper was posted, "law and order: ci", it read.
i freaked. i frantically analyse the entire area
in hope to spot anyone form the show.
no luck.
then my "wheres Waldo" partner spots him.
sweet sweet vincent.
i wont go into details how i approached him and made a fool out
of myself, but i'll tell you thatthe first thing to come out of my mouth was
"oh geez your so handsome".
he sat in the huge shiny black Cadillac escalate.
his smile was big, face scuffed and he himself almost bear-like.
oh he's so adorable.

if i'm lucky my brain wont shut down and i can say
something witty to make him laugh next time. hey, i mean, it could happen.
as well as not be a bigger idiot and not take a picture with him.geesh.

the following day we were at grand central when yet again, my co-pilot spots
another movie star. this time i'm not excited. but found it humourous how
he was like the pink elelphant in the room, in this case the subway. everyone tired to act normal.
and yes, it was really ethan hawke.

i mean i liked him in before sunrise, it was the movie that won my heart over
but the minute that slut cheated on uma. he was no better
then those throw away goods, like usher and jude law. &if you think he's not a douche,
here he is being one at the 2007 tonys

i mean "he was asked about this video and was honest in an interview, he said he was not familiar with her work and did not know why such a big fuss was made over her....he is a cocky bastard and....disrespectful. "
douche.

nuevo.viejas

me @ old 1st apt in cali


so i was going through some old photobucket pix today. not sure exactly why and been dealing with the fact that i've been having to suffer popsicle toes because dhl has me sitting at the window like a pathetic puppie, waiting for my f*en package.
but what is a poor sap to do.
if worst comes to worst looks like i'm going to fckenin inwood nowhere really awsome ny to get a 13.5 oz box.

excuse me, but its very important
and frankly i'm just really ticked off at this entire incident.

but back to what i was saying, before the mad womens ramble,
i found some old photos and some made me smile, others made me vomit in my mouth a little (pix of the ex and I)
but most of all it made me think about that girl i was in those pictures.
i suppose the core part of looking and striving for something great hasnt changed
but who i was is not who i am now.
i mean come on, naturally theres change.
i embrace it, though coldly sometimes
i do nonetheless.

let me tell you an insider thing about writing.
just do it.
sure keeping blogs, journal, diaries, and notepads may seam
nerdy and even childish to some
but it can serve you as a number of things.

i actually find it as a humorous reference of my life (first person)
about the woes, lows, and hoes.
and of course all that great stuff pb&j-ed in between.

people will always think nothin's going on, like they're waiting for the big bam of their lives
and they're drifters.
but dont you see (as you will one day) that we are always moving
and things are always happening.
you dont have to always look past the moutain tops
just past your nose.


enjoy the view displayed in front of you

the wick inro

me and the roomies collaberated to make this pilot :



life in bush'wick"!

1/4x2=change!

its an understatement to say that a lot has happen since last post.

one very important thing i must say is that nov 4!!!

wow! historical! amazing! hopeful! inspiring! emotional!

that saturday i was

 working the usual nite shift and was sa

d that i was going to miss the outcome of the election but we headed into brooklyn to grab some brews to either cry into our cups or celebrate with them.

as i got off the train i immediately hear cheering and people along the street, arms up and jumping, for what sounded like something good had happen

.

is it true?! is it?! we run to the bar awkwardly with our stuff to see on the HD flat screen that our next president of the UNITED STATES IS.....

ah...aWWWWWW yes!!!!! OBAMA!!!

taylor, my roomie, was so excited in fact she made a video.

mad props!

awesome!

it was a clip of just what was going on in new york. it felt like new years eve.

people on the streets cheering and ranting. 

It was the first time i really genuinely felt proud to be AMERICAN!

people united.

& for the first time, in a long time, it was our nation celebrating the good

and not the tragic.

gba!

well, in other news the economy is still in the toilet hole from what it was before and one of the reasons my job was "letting people go" b.s. was happening.

lets just say there was a lot of kaka mouth syndrome that went on there anyways. up to the very end. 

what was a mix feeling of liberation and

 disappointment, has transfered into a great job with sundays off!!!

getting paid a bit more, awesome benefits, and located essentially closer to  home.

its kinda cool working in the MET LIFE building, perhaps cause its one of the skyscrapers that you can still see from brooklyn.

the smaller down side is working at night. i stay up late, wake up later the next day a

nd dont get to do much. yet being any type of cook, chef, restaurant related anything getting sundays off is a hard thing to pass up. but i'm in a better place now.

cupcake.random

!!!

so yet other project and love has evolved to make cupcake.random. still fairly new, but has received great feed back from many. 

ruth whose awesome, asked me to do the cmj event, to help promote my little business.

thank you for being supportive!

including taylor&sam.

thanks again.

of course my customers &

the cupcake admirers!

i dont have an official website, but i do have a myspace account where i post picture and updates! become our friend if you have an ounce of cupcake desires in your blood.

myspace.com/cupcakerandom

(will also link on this page.top right hand corner)

halloween 

good times halloween. i was broke as a joke but manage to put something together last minute. face paint is great and semi-fun. i say semi cause at one point its just a pain in the butt trying not to smear it, eat it, or get it in your eye. haa.

my theme was day of the dead. i think i did alright. i had fun anyways and met some great people at the parties.

i think despite my last minute efforts this year, i really had a appreciation for halloween & day of the dead.

most of it came from a subconscious level.

i lost an uncle that same month, and disclosing the details

is not important, but it has made my soul restless.

deaths in the past have always been a painful sting in my heart,

but this one, this time, the string remains.

maybe its the fact i'm so far away and haven't made my peace.

maybe i feel everything that happen, shouldn't have, and i wasn't there

to do anything.

its crazy how even an uncontrollable situation can still

make you feel guilty. 

its childish, but its hard when you lose some one you loved.

a-trak&boys noize clips!

heres some clip guys&andgals from the new york show @webster hall!

me& tati on stage (video:sam)

for more pictures go to my page & visits my buddy jeff's site asap sukas

to see some for awsum photos!!!

staytune

stay tune for new york show clips!

So as they say things happen for a reason and i hate to be the bearer of bad news but we as human beings are meant to fail. ah yes, well, we are but we don't have to like it.

this past weekend, or i should say week, has change my whole word upside down. but its okay.

i've seen the good, bad, and ugly and we have to remember that not everyone is out to get us, but dont forget that those maggots are still out there.

revenge tip toes around moral issues, but can feel devilishly comforting at times. yet i've come to learn that it is always better to be the bigger person. every time! i will never forget when my grandma told me that all the anger and hate she had for people in her life, had finally turn against her. she meant her cancer. medically the idea is far fetch, but i understood what she meant.

theres no point in harvesting such ugliness in you because what you hate will be what you will become.

and life is too awsume to always be pist!

i know i have every right to be angry at people, specially the recent situation, but

the best revenge is to move on.

amen!

unexpected events

so i thought when i was gonna call into work yesterday
that my head was gonna be on a plate.
but some reason the chef were being human & understanding.


i mean its not my fault they havent found a cure for the common
cold, right. gees. & if someone still thinks you sexy when you sound
like the love child of Fran Drescher & a character from revenge of the nerds
keep them around!

i wanted to do a little short video more for my buddy aracelis
and i guess a bit randomness


so watch & throw tomatoes if you must
but hope u enjoy:






so just in case you didnt get to see the shot
heres a better look!





mmm.dee.lish!


well it hurts like a bitch and i've been walking like i have a wooden leg!
poop!


let me tell you though the bike ride was so sweet!
and i was actually laughing while i was falling off the bike!
i was like oh shit. haaa!

and then crash!

i tell you though, there nothing like that sweet wind as you ride through brooklyn& i want this so bad now, even post crash!

friday night with sam taylor me & jewls


















so if you are in new york
and love naked women then you gotta hit up a little place off of orchard and stanton on the lower eastside. women dance and take off there clothes with a little
more taste then your average stripper.

on the left you can see this all women chick dancer
as my roomie taylor doing the 'i approve this message' pose.

good times
after words we got crepes at this place down the street
where this foreign women behind the counter
made this natella deliciousness with a separate order
sun dried tomatoes and goat cheese stuffed crepes
mmm.





so me & the roomie stand different when it comes to team miliey and team demi/selena!

so i do have to admit how i adore demi and selena and i wouldnt be a fan at heart
if i didnt tell you that her cd
dont forget
is coming out and i'm
getting it!


perez hilton has a thing for the jonie bros
and i gotta support the
young women who
are smart and talented.


i may get stonded
for being such a kid at heart
but i cant help it.






new season coming!
fall/winter in new york
that means cozy time
and more scarfs!


chrismas in new york!
get yourself over here!

updates!

please watch!

hi everyone and anyone reading/watching the above

i know i've been a stranger but hope to keep you all updated

as much as possible!

i've finally had a day off.

i had been working 11 days straight

and i'm talking about 12 hours day!

geesh!

we got a chocolate festival currently going on at my

restaurant and that had made production a little nuts!

its always nice seeing peeps from back home

and mark paul came for like 3ish days

and stayed at my brooklyn apt!
thanks again for the mexican candy!

you rock!

we partyed up like rock stars the day of the fashion show

@ the tribecca grand hotel

so it was me him & his buddy lorenzo and we ended getting into

this crazy party that was invite only in the vip section.

may i say this though, wtf?

way are people with money so freakin boring!

we got our asses outta there and went down stairs

were we ended up loosing lorenzo and riping up the dance floor

& having a blast

heres mp!
your fab pictures when you where in nyc!

fresh. but how fresh?

so i have this tendency to just pick up on go some times
perhaps that why i'm currently living in new york

perhaps thats why i own so many damn note books
that are 1/4 filled

i dont like to commit and i'm learning that all those things
i thought i wasnt, i am.

well certain things.
my attention span is short
(its gotten a little better)
and i am very random.
tho, bipolar may be a word that 'adults' use instead

and the working life of tired routine can
make u feel like a grandma's fart.

lame.

some times when you work so damn hard
wanting a better life, you forget the present one
you have.


i miss people back home.
but i love being here.
its hard.
choosing to grow and really
put your self in a potion to
just do it so raw
is a process,
but worth it.


i feel empowered.
lost at times,
but so damn good that i
am making it 3000miles
from friends family and
the comfort zone of life.


when you get out of your bubble.
mine happen to be san diego bubble.
its amazing to breath the air outside


though party back home is something
i reminisce about often,
and holy crap where those good times,
i'm proud of myself
that i'm doing something
beside let myself self destruct.


i say next,
Europe.